Sunday, June 12, 2011

I’m back but with a Heavy Heart


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Shelby Baker
1996-June 3, 2011

This is my reason for my recent absence from blogging.  We had to put our sweet dog Shelby, who had brought so much happiness to our family for the past 12 years, to sleep on my birthday. This picture was taken in April, isn’t she so cute?   Now that I look at the picture, she seemed to not be her happy self, since she usually always appeared to be smiling for the camera! 

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We got Shelby in 1999 to be a companion for our lab Jazz who was just a year old.  They became fast buddies until one night Jazz got out of the back fence and we woke the next morning to just find Shelby back there.  We never found Jazz, and although I think Shelby missed her, she was perfectly content to be the only animal in our family!  But she went on having to deal with the 2 cats we still had so she ended up just being the only dog in our family!  Shelby never liked to play with toys, although one day last year when we weren’t paying that much attention to her, picked up one of Elsie’s toys and threw it in the air and it knocked down a few things on the TV and fell behind it.  It was pretty funny! 

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Shelby was a Daddy’s girl…whenever John was at home, she plopped herself down on the floor right next to him. Whenever he wasn’t at home, she would lay in those same spots, waiting for him.  She was always so happy when he came home!  She also LOVED living at the property!  We were blessed to have her for as long as we did, especially because she was diagnosed with a tumor on her lung Nov 6 ‘09 that I shared here.  Over the 19 months we still had her around, we enjoyed each day she would greet us with a wag of her tail in the mornings and evenings.  We listened to her cough change a lot over the months, seeming to get better & worse at times.  But when we took her to the vet last Summer, the vet was inclined to say it didn’t appear that her tumor was cancerous and was perhaps a fatty tumor like she had in other parts of her body, a result of her aging.  But when we stopped eating her crunchy food a few weeks ago and had a sore on the bottom of her mouth on the right, we knew something was wrong.  The vet ended up finding a tumor in me & Shelbyher mouth from her molars to her esophagus which explained a lot.  Our difficult decision was not that hard to make considering her age, the fact that she was not taking her medicine, eating or drinking much and the fact that we just could not put her through more suffering, we knew it was the right thing to do.  However, it was still so hard to endure but we had to be the ones she would see when she took her last breaths.  I take comfort in the fact she is no longer suffering and we will see her again in Heaven but it hurts my heart so much to have this emptiness in the house and in our hearts.

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12 comments on "I’m back but with a Heavy Heart"

Lori on 12:47 PM CDT said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, but I agree it was the right thing to do. O-kay, stop crying now, Lori. I dread having to make that decision. Shelby does look sad in that first picture. :(
Lots of hugs, Lori

Kathy Martin on 4:46 PM CDT said...

(((hugs)))

Donna A. said...

Sorry for the loss of your beloved Shelby. It just hurts my heart, but you did the right thing.

Sending Hugs

Patty Sue 2 on 12:41 PM CDT said...

Having gone through the same thing last summer I can relate to your loss. When you lose someone who loves you unconditinally it is so hard. It sounds as if you were blessed with a great friend and pet.

Michelle on 8:44 AM CDT said...

I'm so sorry, Donna. You did the loving thing, but I know how deeply it hurts.

sandi on 6:32 PM CDT said...

I am really sorry about Shelby. I had to have my best and dearest friend put to sleep 2 years ago. I miss her to this day but sometimes I see her playing in the yard or feel her sleeping next to me (sounds crazy) but Shelby is still here with you like Scooby is with me. Much Love and Hugs.

Laura M. said...

I'm so sorry. She looks like such a sweet little girl.

MizMaryAnn on 10:37 AM CDT said...

Your story brought tears to my eyes. It's amazing how much love a pet brings to us. My husband and I dread the day someday when we will lose our beloved Triscuit. My heart is so sad for your family. Hopefully time will heal your wound.

Jodi Collins aka Kharmagirl on 2:12 PM CDT said...

Oh Donna, I am SO SO SO sorry for your loss. I am sure that you and John are just heartbroken. Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!

Joanne on 8:34 PM CDT said...

This was such a sad story ... I can tell your family had a loving companion. Love sent to you whole family.

Anonymous said...

Hi Donna,
I will pray for your pain to ease. We had a black lab named Cody. He was truly the best pet we ever had. He was almost 11 and had cancer. When he began showing signs of distress...we knew it was time.
Then 3 1/2 weeks later, something went terribly wrong with our cat Punki's heart and she threw a blood clot. We had to make that awful decision again. We were with them til they took their last breaths. We pray it was the best and kindest way.
I don't need to tell you how much they were loved and missed. You know all about that already.
I don't think our lives will ever be quite the same. This all happened about 3 months ago and my heart is still hurting. Susie

Kathy on 1:53 PM CDT said...

Donna,
I'm thinking of you and hope that you and John are healing as you go through this loss together. Big hugs to you.

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